The season 2

remember when I was in high school, I always looked forward to playing some ultimate afterschool.I didn't know much about the tactics and often got lost on the field if without a coach.but maybe that's what makes it fun.I had so much fun playing ultimate in my junior year, my first year playing ultimate, but the second year,it was just not as good as the first year, maybe because some big players graduated and the team fell apart due to various reasons.I learned to adjust myself not to care about the result so much. My emotions was usually greatly affected by the game.So I graudated and got to play some college ultimate. I did not remember the fun of playing ultimate.I did not look forward to going to practice so much anymore. The competition level in college is way beyond what I have expereience in high school. The practice is a killer. I regret sometimes I got busy with all sorts of obligation and got lazy or intimidated so chose not to show up in practice.I still have fun, but not so much and I don't know why. Maybe it's just not so much fun when you can't easily outrun people anymore. Maybe it's just about time for me to bring up the intensity and changed my mantality so I can get better and keep having fun.I am surely pumped during the game, but something is missing here.but where's all the having fun feeling????

The season 1

I remember, more precisely-can not forget, what brought me into playing ultimate. The language was the thing that brought me in .since my teacher thought that I would not have much conversation with my teammates if I chose to play tennis.So I made the decision.I had gained a lot not just on improving my language skill but also becoming more socialize.Or at least kind of know more how to do so. I made so many life-long friends by playing ultimate, directly and indirectly. Obviously I was lucky to make such decision. Tennis is fun to play, but still, it's just not so much powerful in the sense of binding the team as a whole.

there's a word for that

There's a word for that, it means that a group of people who always stick around and it's hard for outsider to break into. Cleats? Sounds like the thing I wear on the ultimate field, ha, anyway, let's define it just for now. When there are two people, people either like one another or not. When there are three people, two of them can tie up against the other, three live happily altogether, or every one of them dislike the others.When there are four...there are four combination, right?When there are ....When there are 10... it can be really interesting, you see three or a few more will be closer together. of course, it can be two or one and all sorts of possibility.It definitely sucks to be the "one" in this case.Kinda down now, just want to write something out, but it doesn't seem to help, :D.I guess I just feel out of place sometimes. That doesn't bother me so much now b/c I have learned to adjust myself well enough. It is probably a good idea to start explore more, know more friends in particular here.It's not totally a bad thing I guess.

Weekend

Season is over now. That's so weird...I can't believe it. We lost the sectional.
I was really upset that we lost to … Our team chemical didn't appear until the last moment and often that was too late. Our energy level wasn't helping us, not making the right decision. We weren't playing the game whole heartedly.
I didn't do well the whole season wise. I don't have my mind there sometimes...in practice and in the game...
Too many things needed to be fixed!
I think I know the difference b/w a great player and a good player now. I would call myself a great player on my junior year and at the later season in my senior year in high school.
My skills are catching up and they are totally whole lot better than previous, but I don't put my everything out there anymore.Anyway, I got some time to fix that.

UK trip dream

Hopefully, one day I have chance to vist UK
Here comes several travel packages
Fly by American Airlines Dallas DFW to Manchester UK -＄732
Cruise by Queen Mary 2 -＄1201
Drive by Googlemaps trip plane- Free...Wow!!...what a sweet deal
only if I can stand for No.26 of its travel plane......
Googlemaps travel plan- Dallas to London
ORZ......

TIRED……

I went to Dallas these days. Damn it! It was a tiring trip.Then, I went to the school that may become my future school.I don't know how to describe that school. I supposed to be a cowgirl for a while.On the other hand, I asked my advisor about the degree plan. She told me it's possible that I can graduate next summer.In addition, I can get the scholarship and the in-state tuition.I really don't know how to make a right decision.It's hard to make a decision. I have already stayed in TW for a long time.I am used to live here and get a lot of friends.Time is running soon. I need to get my master degree ASAP.Actually, I really don't want to leave here.Everyone asked me to stay here, but why my advisor treated me so bad.I don't like her attitude. I want to get into our graduate courses instead of PB courses.Unfortunately, I think I may be disappointed about the final decision.But, I will try to do my best to get what I want. If I fail, I will not regret it.

Litte Miss Sunshine

How long have you never seen a great movie?It’s Oscar season right now, what’s you best movie this year? Recently I booked the internet service from blockbuster, that not means I have great time to see movies, only because I want to make further improvement for my English. ( haha...how wonderful this excuse is!)Several weeks b4, I saw a movie great recommended from friends and peers-little miss sunshine, I don't know how Taiwan movie agents translate this movie, hopefully, not too extraordinary"Little miss sunshine" has been nominated to Oscar award, it's really a heartwarming, hilarious movie about family, The great movie doesn't always need great money. The spirits or main thoughts make what they are. Haha....I thought this year Hollywood try to make people to see the inner beauty of the girls. From Emmy award actress winner Salma Hayek in Ugly Betty to Jennifer Hundson in the other this year Oscar nominated movie- dreamgirls, and the cute sweet little girl-Abigail Breslin, they all may not be the hot beauties at first sight. But what impressed me is how confident they are, no doubts, they have true beauty in any ways.
Sometimes, our family members may be the most familiar strangers in our circumstances. We spent a lot of time hang out with our friends, study with our classmates or work with our colleagues. Our family may sometimes have some imperfections, weakness, and misunderstandings. Atmosphere may not so heartwarming. However, after all, it’s still our family. Like characters in this movie, the father lost his job, brother seems have autism, and grandpa looks a weird old guy who was heroin heavy addicted. Their mom, cigarettes never leave her hands and her brother is a embarrassed gay guy. The actress-Olive is a cute but a little bit overweighed small girl. Though they seem each have their own problems. Though at first they found their family was so weird in some aspects. Finally they still found family is the only true support for them. That’s really what family is for.
A good movie like good coffee or tea never need too much sugar too much milk to cover its original flavor. And afterwards, there’s like still some sweet flavors in your tongue and remnant warmth to warm your heart, also giving you a lot of thoughts and reflections. That’s my criteria for great movies. Haha…how abstract my criteria is.

Good fellowship

Good fellowship...This year RECORW was held by Dallas church. This was really a good chance for RE teachers to refill ourselves with strength from God. Though neither a RE coordinator nor a secretary am I, still I learn a lot of things from this workshop and heard great testimony of African missionary troop( Newest Feb. troop )from pastor Vuthy.More wonderful thing was we have great fellowship with bros and sis from all north America chruches, I met several old friends from NYTS or church seminars.It's pity that I have midterm this week and can't take part in all courses.Hopefully, I can better arrange my time, then next time I won't miss such kind of good oppourtunity.Also pity that I had no time to say goodbye to those friends, especially Sanyu and kati, miss a great chace to show you guys DallasI really want to take part in NYTS this year, but It seems impossible for meI have to take courses during summer or I may have to spend one more semester to finish my master degree.It's really so much stuff to do and to learn in US, should I continue my Phd degree here or try to find a job here?Hope God guide a best way for me.

Too much question

too much question
day by day
this kind of life…
make me tired to face a lot of things
study and test never stop every day

I can’t feel myself…
Where am i? i don’t know, but I afraid to think this question.
When I think about that, my mood will down to the deeply valley.
Happy or not?
I can’t find out the answer

I am too anxious to think about my future. I give myself a lot of goal, but I can finish which one first?
Reluctant to do too much things is not very good, especially I want to be the best one.
I promise u while I come back, I will be the best one. This is a worth invest…
Tryin’ to be myself is a dream…not easy to do that
U said I always lose in love
I agree
Relationship
But it is soooooooooooo lucky I be with he not just right now
That’s different of sweet

Findin’ out the answer and keep goin’……

A poem for mother

M-O-T-H-E-R

"M" is for the million things she gave me,
"O" means only that she's growing old,
"T" is for the tears she shed to save me,
"H" is for her heart of purest gold;
"E" is for her eyes, with love-light shining,
"R" means right, and right she'll always be,

Put them all together, they spell "MOTHER,"the word that means the world to me.

You want a piece of me?

You can be more proud.Do what u want even ur free all day long?Livin’ in ur world fuck,but it doesn't really matter to me.I am still who i am,i still do what i want to do,and i don't give a shit about you!!!cuz it's a waste of my time.If you have the ball ,bring up the beef to me,or you just shut the fuck up!!!


Damn, haven't got so mad in a long time

RESPECT

If you respct me and my friends, i will respect you back in the same way.However, if you don't, i will fuck you ten times back .

RESPECT!!!

Once upon a time

...I was in latnite talking to Nate. That was after I hung up from talking to Angus."I sometimes feel I don't have friends.""Somtimes how you feel doesn't reflect the reality; haha, I am taking too much philosophy.""That's probably true; but the way you feel is what affects your emotion, not the reality."...I guess the conversation did not last long. Then we started another topic on girls' appearance and made a ranking.:)

speechless

Sometimes I forget how to talk.I asked my teacher or my close friends a lot the question a lot a few years ago."What do you talk about when you are dealing with people you barely know?"Perhaps I have become more able to manipulate on this kind of skill so now I don't usually worry much about that.Somehow other kind of questions come up to me. Don't really feel like talking. Even with close friends I can be really impatient. Not all the time, but often enough for me to notice that. For people I barely know. I do not what to say and that is not because I don't know about what to say but rather I am just not in a mood of making new friends. Of course we don't always categorize different friends and make a label on them, but it seems we all tend to hang out with those we are more favorable with. It's normal and totally understandable, but is that a problem?I am lost...maybe not only does bad answer exist, but also does bad question.

God

I feel bad coz I have a math midterm tmr but I don't feel like studying at all...and I am trying not to swear now...so now words are totally not enough to express my feelings.but that's not what I want to talk about. I want to talk about religions.I was raised in a Buddhist family. My family also believes in some sort of local religions just like most Taiwanese people do.Sometimes I envy those who have religions b/c when they are down; they have someone out there supporting them. Nate, a friend of mine who is a Christian, told me the most interesting theory that I have ever heard last Friday."How do you know whether God exists or not?""If god doesn't exist, who creates all these things?""Well...still, can't say God exists who I don't know how all things are created?"......"Think in this way. It's wiser to believe in God because if God really exists, then you will be saved by believing him."...Good point...Still...I wasn't convinced.But I think religion is a good thing to have since it gives you support when you're down.I'm addicted to this website now.Due...should study now.

Courage 2

Stress:Does it stimulate or stifle courage?
There's a famous graph in industrial psychology that despict that under very low levels of stress for enperiencedfolks, perforance isn't as great as it is when there's a modest level of stress. But it's a parabolic curve. It goes up for a while-more stress, better perforance-but it crests at a panic point. As strress goes beyond that panic point, perforance tapers off. The callind of a leader is to ensure that each person who works for her doesn't reach that point and become paralyzed.
~Michel Useem

Is courage an individual or a group activity?
Courage is not a product of individual behavior. It's a function of feeling part of social fabric,of a network that's going to do something that has never been done before.People do gutsy things because they're in a group.Leaders articualate those goals and incarnate the behavior through symbolic conduct to get people to follow.
~Warren Bennis

Class writing

Today is a good day, I feel vary comfortable. I hate rainy day. I feel sad when I listen the rain fall. But sometimes rain day can bring us difference feel . Example I feel that when I at rain day I can think everything. I think I would not go to school at rainy day.
Because it was very trouble for me to walk on the road in rainy day .It can make me so wet and uncomfortable. I have to bring the umbrella. It also seems a trouble to me. So, I love sun day, and hate rainy day.

Courage

What is courage?
What we label courage is a strong commitment-and the key word is emotional-to some ideas.Those ideas could be called a vision for what we think is important in life.They could be called principles of what is right and wrong.When people don't just have an intellectual sence that these are logically good, but are deeply committed to them, they're developing courage.
~John Kotter,Profess,Harvard Business School

How do you decide wkat's bold and daring versus just stupid and reckless?
There's no such thing as a safe risk. That's an oxymoron.Allcourage is a risk. None of it is safe. The only way to decide is through hindsight.
~Warren Bennis,Distinguished professor of business,University of Southern California

ABBY

My name is Abby. I'm 18 years old. I like to watch TV in my leisure. I pursued my hobby of listening music for so many years. I hope I can be happy everyday!